It was all a little too good. Much much to "Easy Street" to be my REAL life. I knew it but, I wanted to ride out the wave. I had a feeling one was going to hit any day. I was right.
I'm being sabotaged.
Funny thing is...I think it's amusing-that is when I'm not crying about it. The tears are mostly from anger because I don't know how else to express what it is that I am feeling.
After some detective work on my part I've learned where the attack is coming from and that it has nothing to actually do with me. It's about sad, small people trying to prove that they exist to the world. This part actually impowers me to be fan-tab-u-lous (when I'm not weeping).
I don't want to toss and turn tonight but I fear that I will. Last night I couldn't sleep either. I can't get conversations and emails out of my mind. I tried meditation to get me back to sleep. You know the type, breathe deep and clear your mind. It worked...until my mind was once again UNCLEAR.
On one thing I am CLEAR I will not let this effect me where it counts that most.
Say a little pray for me...
