"You have NO new messages"

I'm waiting for a call. Waiting for a call is the worst feeling ever. All I can think about is what the caller must be doing. Are they having a busy day or is it just bad news? As long as you don't hear anything bad news is still good news right? No news is good news they say. I can't wholly agree.

I'm waiting for the recruiter to call me and tell me if I "got the job". At which point I fane disbelief, "Are you serious? Of course I accept." It is by no means my dream job but I've been dreaming about the paycheck it will give me since I learned of it.

If I checked my voicemail 50 times since 9:30 am I'm really low balling. I really just want to hear the good, bad or ugly before this evening. This way I can start Monday on a clean slate. I can get back in the trenches and once again survey the scene. It's pretty tough out there...I hope I get called in from the war.

Here comes the bride.

Saturday morning I was recruited to go wedding dress shopping. It was a most unexpected invitation and I had a ball! Once the bride and I hooked up she informed me that she didn't actually have appointments at her shops of choice, she was crashing, and hoped they'd take us. We didn't actually have to worry about arriving san appointment because both bridal shops in her top 3 choices didn't open until 12 noon and it was only 11am.
Bright eyed and bushy tailed we hailed a cab and headed to shop number three, Myr Jan. It should have been our first stop. This place is one stop shopping. They carry everything you could possibly need. If they don't have it they have a relationship with someone who does. The service was superb also. We arrived without an appointment and were treated with one on one personal service by the owner herself.
I modeled dresses for the bride as she is not yet at goal weight and the samples actually FIT ME!! Now that's saying something. I have to admit, I was quite the vision. In one gown that I tried on I almost took my own breathe away. It was a really nice finish to a long long work week.
Right now only she and I know the details of the dress. I can't wait until June when I see her walk down the aisle on The Hotel rooftop with the Miami skyline as her wedding backdrop in the dress that we picked out together. She's going to be a breathtaking bride.

I'm crying everyones tears

I've been faithfully taking my blue and white happy pill every day to keep the crazies at bay. The pill is only strong enough to deal with my rollercoaster life though. Today my heart has had to deal with too much sorrow. It was a long long weekend.