I wore a coat to work today. It really saddens me, I think I have SAD. I don't have feelings of suicide or anything but fall and winter put me in a funk. It's a slippery slope of depression, overeating, skipping exercise and the inevitable weight gain that follows. I don't want to go down that road this year. I'm fighting back. My eating is in control at the moment but every minute is a battle. Every fat cell in my body is craving to be given fuel so that they can multiple. I'm drinking green tea by the gallons in an attempt to fight the cravings and perhaps kick start my metabolism that seems to be out of commission as of late.
In other news,
The holiday season is upon us. It's time to buy holiday cards and make gift lists. Create dinner menus for all the "eves" and "days" to come. It's also time to "fall clean"...or should I have done that already?. I haven't switched my closet over yet. I just kind of keep hoping that if I don't unpack my sweaters, maybe I won't need them. That hypothesis is not proving true, with each passing day the mercury drops a little more.
Then there is the whole deep clean factor. I haven't deep cleaned since August. I know this as a fact because I had people over the weekend I did it. This morning I got nauseous leaving my apartment in the state that it's in. It needs a good once over. That is what I plan to do tonight. I plan to scrub, reorganize, put away my laundry from Sunday and mop. Which reminds me, I have to get some gloves from the unit today.
I will feel alot better once I have a nice clean house. Another thing that I need is to get some new "stuff" in there. Not sure quite sure what I want yet but, I'm tired of looking at the same ole, same ole. New stuff always makes you me feel better. I definetly need a new dresser, a rug might brighten things up some also. I'm feeling a little bit better now, like I have a plan. Smile.
